Monday, March 24, 2008

Mary Oliver- "The Journey"

One day you finally knew

what you had to do, and began,

though the voices around you

kept shouting

their bad advice -

though the whole house

began to tremble

and you felt the old tug

at your ankles.

"Mend my life!"

each voice cried.

But you didn't stop.

You knew what you had to do,

though the wind pried

with its stiff fingers

at the very foundations,

though their melancholy

was terrible.

It was already late

enough, and a wild night,

and the road full of fallen branches and stones.

But little by little,

as you left their voices behind,

the stars began to burn

through the sheet of clouds,

and there was a new voice

which you slowly

recognised as your own,

that kept you company

as you strode deeper and deeper

into the world,

determined to do

the only thing you could do -

determined to save

the only life you could save.

And so it begins....

With still a bit of a cough, I got out there at 5:30am this morning and ran 10km.

It was quiet.

No wind and just the sound of my feet. There is no better therapy for the mind.

I started off at a good jog. Everything abotu teh run felt goos. Which is strange because of how sick I have been lately. I had a bit of water at km 3... but then didn't feel i needed any until i finished.

I am determined to get a road bike by the end of April. And tweak my running and swimming until then...

mmmmmm...

it sure feels good to be running outside again...

:)

Sunday, March 23, 2008

An easy day ahead...

Yesterday started out aweful....

I mean the kindof aweful that makes you want to run for the woods and never come out.

My furnace needed to be bled, and honestly I felt up to the task... but after an hour of fighting with it... I decided it deserved some professional attention. Monday was the earliest this could happen. So I put it out of my mind.

I send the kids to my moms and headed up to Moncton to Mike's Bike Shop and learned about triathlon bikes and the gear. The store really surprized me. The science behind the bikes... I was inspired to learn more.

I feel up to the swim and know that i can get help training for that...

I love to run so that isn't an issue... but the bike.... ug.... I really should have a street bike.

Andre was very kind to explain things down to my level. From the gears, the pedels, and the differences between all the bikes... he has been doing triathlons for 15 years and it is impossible to not be effected by his passion for the sport.

I came back to Amherst convinced that i can do this.

:)

With that said, this morning I have accepted that it will be an easy day. Kale and Drew and Haven are all suffering from a virus that i am slowly recovering from. There will be some coloring and a movie or two. And fruit slushies... mmmmm...

Friday, March 21, 2008

a turn for the worse...

I considered posting a picture....

but no...

:)

My finger is bad... really bad...

I know my pain limits, and yesterday i knew instinctively that something was really wrong. Much more wrong than just a hurt finger.

It is infected.

So today, I cleaned the cut out myself and put some hydrogen peroxide on it....

It has since swollen worse and i can barely bend it..

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

I hate not being at 100%. I know that it is just a finger.... but sheesh... I have to go to the hospital again? Kyle will be here in 45 minutes and i am giong to the hospital for some meds to help with the infection...

no glue.... no stitches... just a bandaid and some meds...

did i mention

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR?

:(

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Kale Scott Whitten is 4....

Happy Birthday Kale!!!!!

Bad Dreams

last night was aweful...

I dreamed about the Bluenose Marathon all night long. I dreamed that I decided to do it again.... but i got lost, and it wasn't 42 km, it was 100 or more and ... they ran out of water stations... and then the dream took a strange twist and it was like a movie with men with guns... and suddenly i was Station Street, and Teasers and the old Enheat buildings were not there... the ocean was there ....

and there was a huge boat that i was invited to party on and we were jumping off the boat into the shark infested waters..........

ug...

You wake up from dreams like that exhausted...

:)

I need to go workout...

then yoga....