The bottom...

ok...

I know my limits.

And the Sleigh Ride that planned for this afternoon for 4H, is going to have to go on without me...

And I feel bad because it was also supposed to be a general meeting.

But seriously my entire body is being ravaged by this "no oomph wanna be cold" virus. And except for throwing some food at the kids from time to time... I intend on sitting still and researching Mic Mac's for most of the day.

I might play some guitar.......

nope...

I just looked at it and my arms and fingers yelled out in protest.

:)

I am in a constant state of exhaustion... so my compassion is paramount, where as i haven't the firey spark needed to get angry... but I'll you... I am losing my patience with my newpaper. It has been over a month and my Blogs are not being posted. And last year there were times when i would blog about an event coming up and it would be posted after the event happened.

Oh well.

Like i said.... no spark...

Tomorrow night i heard there is meditation over at the University. I might go over and look into it.

Namaste.

:)

It is snowing here now...

Myles said:

"Sucking my thumb is my life."

Kale's Kwotes

"Hey Mom, look at all those sticks in that tree!"

it sucks to be my kids today...

I had all the plans today...

...baking cookies, swimming at the ymca, hiking, sledding...

:(

but i got landed with the "no oomph..." virus.

I am kinda sick, the all over tired kinda sick.

No patience, no creativity, no... fun.....

Just the thought of having to make lunch soon, exhausts me.

I want to curl up and sleep for days.

But then there is a little voice inside me that says:

"gogogo"

My kids are going to have to entertain themselves today...

Mommy is taking a sick day...

Another Dr's appointment... another Cat Scan...

My family Doctor sent me to the General Surgeon today in my town about a suspicious mark on my toe.

Dr. Van Boxel took a look at it and decided it was a bruise.

He then checked me over quicky and is going to remove some other "marks" he doesn't like. He is also setting me up with another Cat Scan. He seemed surprised that i wasn't going to be followed up by my Dr's in Halifax that removed my cancer 2 years ago...

I have been thinking alot lately about getting another Cat Scan and the peace of mind that it brings. So as soon as Van Boxel mentioned it, I was excited for it.

but ug...

More scars...

:(

Anywhere but here...

Today was supposed to be different, but i seem to be carryng the baggage from the last few days and how aweful they have been.

I have the kids all ready to go somewhere, anywhere but here.

Getting out of the house and getting some fresh air might help my mood...

it always seems to help...

I hope it does today.

It's 11:39am

Geneva hath bathed-ith

ahhhhhhhhh....

:)

She didn't seem to mind it either...

...this kids all chanting "shake,shake, shake"

started to annoy me, but only briefly...

:)